Changes!

First I just wanna say that I am horrible at updating this mother, so it is my new goal to keep you all posted more often!

I moved to Cedar City on May 22nd & instantly fell in love with everything about it! I belong here! My apartment is on top/3rd floor so we had to practicly hike to move me in. Let me just tell you that i almost had a heart attack (I know sad. Can you say go running Taylor?!! I think so.) My mom came to help me that day and thank goodness she did, but when she left later that day it hit me "Oh my gosh Im on my own now, all grown up!" I was excited but scared all at once. Luckily I had a lot to keep me busy with my room & later I went to the Institute Dance with friends & Denny's later! It was a blast but I cant even begin to tell you how exhausted I was! The next day was Saturday & I was headed off to Magna, Utah to visit my family! I was there for about a week and then came home the next weekend only to be heading to Duck Creek for the Yates' Family Reunion, which was a blast might i say! We had a lot of fun sitting out on the deck chatting and making dirty jokes and playing volleyball in the rain was the best part!


I started school at Evan's Hairstyling School on June 9th! I have to admit I was a nervous wreck but not the only one. We learn a lot in such little time and my awesome teachers make our long classes interesting & fun! I have been going to Evan's almost two months and am already on the floor doing the public's hair! Its crazy how fast we learned everything and it still is hard to remember everything but i enjoy it & feel like this is something I could have as a career no matter what turns my life takes! I have made a lot of friends and have grown as a person in such little time its crazy!

Now that I have also lived on my own for two months I have to say its really hard sometimes to be without my family. Especially when i wanna kill my nasty roommate! Seriously though...she's moving out, thank gosh!! I will never take for granted all the little things my mom did for me while i lived there and I appreciate all the help she still gives me when Im freakin out and dont know what to do. My dads have also helped me out so much especially financially and I love them for that!

So that's kinda what's been goin on in my life! Im at school alllll day & then I come home & cause trouble in Cedar with my friends! (Kaytlin & I sneak out our door and shoot people in the parking lot with our water guns, its awesome!)

Hair School!!

It all started the other day (ok..more like last week!) when I was ready to scream becuase I was SO unhappy with the way my hair was cut. I had asked a particular person to cut it before I moved back to Vegas and apparently an A-line cut doesn't exist in the woman's vocabulary. So I decided to cut it myself and the only scissors I could find were your everyday, ordinary "kitchen scissors". Yes I know those guys aren't the best things to cut hair with, or anything really, unless you're a professional. I like to think I am so I started to chop away! And you better believe it it turned out to look really good! I was amazed with myself at how great it turned out but I was almost shocked at how much I loved every second of it! I usually am known for my big doos but I honestly never really enjoyed doing my hair every day. It was more of a chore for me. So cuting my hair made me realize that i totally wanted to go to Cosmetology School! I ran to show my mom & she too was surprised at how good it turned out and in one breath told her she was going to ship me off to hair school or else then ran downstairs and started researching for the best schools far enough from home but close enough that I could come visit.

That's when I came across Evan's Hairstyling School in Cedar City, Utah!!! I am completely in love with the school already by just watching videos or what I would be learning and where it's even located (Right next to SUU actually!). I'm hoping to go in September and live in an apartment nearby.
I also wrote down reasons of why going to hair school would benefit my life:

• I would actually be excited to go to school, I have never in my life been happy to be educated (haha...i know sad.)
• I would complete school within a year and graduate with my Cosmetology Degree.
• This is something I can do at home when I have a family, I can still be a mom and make money!
• I will be my own boss, charge what I want, & make my own schedule.
• I would enjoy doing this, for me having my hair look good makes me feel confident & I would love to make other women feel that way too!
• I would make atleast $75,000 a year whereas when i wanted to teach they only make $30,000 a year (you know I dropped that career choice reallll fast!)
• I would be happy with my career!

I Miss It.

• I miss him.
• I miss cuddling on the couch.
• I miss holding him.
• I miss watching Wall-e together.
• I miss kissing.
• I miss his tight, secure hugs.
• I miss his smile.
• I miss staying up untill the wee hours of the morning just cause.
• I miss holding hands.
• I miss listening to music in his car.
• I miss his eyes.
• I miss the way he treated me.

I miss everything...

I miss you bebe!!!!!!

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And the journey continues!

So here it is December and I have not kept anyone updated since September. haha. My bad.

I have so much on my mind right now. The first thing is how much I have gone through this year emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically. I have never been so stressed for so long I think the second I started thinking about college my brain was about to explode and I couldn't take it most of the time. I would just build it all up and then break down about once a week probably. I guess you could say I wasn't ready to grow up...still not ready. So I survived Senioritise and graduation and decided my life needed something fresh and new so off to Utah I went! I lived with my dad in Clinton and I was always reminded of how much I hated the dry, hot, too-populated Vegas I was stuck in for 10 years! I loved knowing I could do whatever I wanted and I was eighteen and wanted to challenge myself. I have always been little miss independent and I always want to do things by myself and for others but if i find i cant do it i get frustrated. This is always where my loving Heavenly Father rescues me and reminds me while im praying that he will ALWAYS be by my side and I know it. I am so grateful to know that no matter what he will always love me, there will always be atleast one person that will never turn me down or walk away.


Now I am moving once more and mind you this will be my third house to live in in just a year! How crazy. But I know its the right decision. Im going to live with grandma! Sadly just a month ago my grandpa passed on and she has not been the same, always lonely and missing the way things used to be, but she's the strongest person I know and I would do anything for her so here I am packing up my things to be with her and keep her company! I also for the first time in gosh...THREE years...yes i said three (sadly) I have a love life! Cody is a really great guy and such a good friends to me and I surely wouldn't have been able to make through these past months with him. I also feel like for the first time in so long I am able to be myself and feel comfortable with a guy. It seems like such a small thing to some but to me its huge. Im used to guys just using me. Thank gosh high school is over!


Another thought that has stayed with me this week is that everyone you are close to are in your life for a reason. I believe that we are all brothers and sisters with one goal and sometimes a brother or two might forget their goal and so our purpose is to help everyone we can return to our Heavenly Father. How truely amazing would it be to see that you made an impact on so many during your time on Earth and saw them in the Celestial Kingdom enjoying the same blessings you were! I have so many people in my life that have made it what it is today. Whenever I'm having a bad day(which is often these days) H.F. always knows the right person to send me and I forget I was ever upset just because they called to see how i was!



I think i have written a novel so stay tuned!!

College Life for the Weekend!

This past weekend before i continued my journey to Clinton I made a pit stop in Cedar to visit Ashleigh and check out SUU! We were always so busy having game nights, checking out hot Utah boys, going shopping, meeting new people, checking out the campus, and we even fit in a mini road trip!

We went to St. George. We went to In-N-Out for lunch ( goodness knows how long the both of us will be deprived of that delicious place) and again found a pretty hot boy but yet...Ashleigh swears he's gay. All well. Our next stop was the mall. On the way there we spoted a pretty interesting and hillarious store and just HAD to take pictures by the signs to show everyone how dang funny it is!

I had SO much fun and I can't wait to attend SUU hopefully this next semester (January) !

Appreciative

As it gets closer to me moving I have come to really, truly appreciate everything I have here in Vegas. I am SO grateful for my family and all their support and unconditional love throughout my life but especially these past 2 years. I have grown so much and gone through trials and extreme stressful situations that I would've gone crazy without my family keeping me grounded.

All my friends who have stuck by my side no matter what, I love you for your friendship, honesty, trust, devotion, faith, etc. I honestly can't say that I have a lot of best friends or a particular "posse" I hang out with, but I prefer it that way! I dont understand how people just hang out with one group of people and not know how fun it is to be with all sorts of fun people!
I have known several of you for a really long time, but there has always been one person that has excepted me for my crazy self, laughs at my jokes or absolutely nothing with me, talk about who's hotter than who, and has been such a great example to me throughout our friendship. Ashleigh is such an amazing sister to me and we will always be "On the Ride" of life together.
I have also had several great guy friends and i appreciate them SO much!

The members of my wards throughout the years that I have come to be close to I will truely miss! My bishop, who gave me the priviledge of babysitting their cute little kids for several years has been so welcoming to me and my family since the day we moved in the ward. He has always been a father figure to me, I can trust him and I value his advice. I will miss his wife and kids so much too. I wish to have a family just like theirs one day!
There are so many who have reached out to me and helped me with my Personal Progress, etc. that I really appreciate for all their help!

The saying "You dont know what you have till its gone" has truely sunkin in for me lately. Its sad to go through all my things I've gathered and collected over the years and have to get rid of things and re-live memories. I will miss so so much here and I'm sure ill be back I just need to take a break and discover what more the world can offer me and challenge myself!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!


Keep in touch :]

QUOTES

I have always collected quotes throughout my life. They inspire me and make me think deeper about things I'm going through in life. My favorite quote is "Become Who You Want to Marry". I heard this from E.F.Y. two years ago during a devotional. It's such a powerful message in only 6 words.

Funny how when your in the dating ages and you expect boys/girls you like to have certain qualities and characteristics physically, mentally, spiritually, and about their personality. But do you ever sit back and wonder if you have developed these qualities?? I know for me I want to be the the best person i can be for my husband and if i expect him to be a certain why I should make sure that I am striving for those same characteristics. This whole thing could very well only make sense in my head. What I'm trying to say is for example, if you want your eternal companion to be physically fit and healthy you should make sure that you are physically fit and healthy.
Becoming who you want to marry can ensure two things:
1. You will become a better person improving yourself.
2. You will also attract the guy(s) that have the qualities, characteristics, etc. you want by improving those about yourself. Example: By becoming physically fit you might per say go to the gym and guys there will notice your drive and motivation to become that way and want to get to know you..who knows he could be mr. right?!

This quote has helped me so much especially at the age im at. Im 18, not looking for mr. right but i am going through a lot of changes physically, mentally, spiritually, etc. and I found it beneficial to write down all my qualities i want in my future husband and each day i strive to embrace those qualities that are on the list that i have not developed yet.

I hope one human gets something from this..or even share your favorite quotes!
:)