And the journey continues!

So here it is December and I have not kept anyone updated since September. haha. My bad.

I have so much on my mind right now. The first thing is how much I have gone through this year emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically. I have never been so stressed for so long I think the second I started thinking about college my brain was about to explode and I couldn't take it most of the time. I would just build it all up and then break down about once a week probably. I guess you could say I wasn't ready to grow up...still not ready. So I survived Senioritise and graduation and decided my life needed something fresh and new so off to Utah I went! I lived with my dad in Clinton and I was always reminded of how much I hated the dry, hot, too-populated Vegas I was stuck in for 10 years! I loved knowing I could do whatever I wanted and I was eighteen and wanted to challenge myself. I have always been little miss independent and I always want to do things by myself and for others but if i find i cant do it i get frustrated. This is always where my loving Heavenly Father rescues me and reminds me while im praying that he will ALWAYS be by my side and I know it. I am so grateful to know that no matter what he will always love me, there will always be atleast one person that will never turn me down or walk away.


Now I am moving once more and mind you this will be my third house to live in in just a year! How crazy. But I know its the right decision. Im going to live with grandma! Sadly just a month ago my grandpa passed on and she has not been the same, always lonely and missing the way things used to be, but she's the strongest person I know and I would do anything for her so here I am packing up my things to be with her and keep her company! I also for the first time in gosh...THREE years...yes i said three (sadly) I have a love life! Cody is a really great guy and such a good friends to me and I surely wouldn't have been able to make through these past months with him. I also feel like for the first time in so long I am able to be myself and feel comfortable with a guy. It seems like such a small thing to some but to me its huge. Im used to guys just using me. Thank gosh high school is over!


Another thought that has stayed with me this week is that everyone you are close to are in your life for a reason. I believe that we are all brothers and sisters with one goal and sometimes a brother or two might forget their goal and so our purpose is to help everyone we can return to our Heavenly Father. How truely amazing would it be to see that you made an impact on so many during your time on Earth and saw them in the Celestial Kingdom enjoying the same blessings you were! I have so many people in my life that have made it what it is today. Whenever I'm having a bad day(which is often these days) H.F. always knows the right person to send me and I forget I was ever upset just because they called to see how i was!



I think i have written a novel so stay tuned!!